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Each year had a story behind it. When I was nine years old, my parents got divorced. I went through two years of police coming in and out of the house. My brother and I nearly had to be removed from the situation entirely.
I could no longer live with my mom after everything she put me through physically. She stopped caring and left, which led me to box myself in the basement on the computer surrounded by multiple fast food boxes, chips, soda and more. I would easily drink a 12-pack of soda a day.
I was emotionally damaged at such a young age. I was your typical weird girl; quiet, shy, and most often awkward. Thankfully, I always had my dad. He is my biggest hero, always wanted to do the best for me.
I enjoyed food, gradually putting on more weight throughout the years. We never ate at home, always out satisfying any craving. I would typically be eating and eating and eating.Once Grade 7 came around, I started to finally make friends - but, why? Well, I could make faces and people found it hilarious, so I rolled with it! Next thing you know there were parties at my house on Halloween, and people coming over every day. It was like everything had fallen into place, except for my weight.
I remember my grade seven teacher told me "You know, you actually have to run if you want to lose weight, right?" while my classmates were doing our "DPA (Daily Physical Activity)." I have never forgotten it.
I went home that day and cried. I did the thing any teenager would do, to try and not eat. It didn't work, as I couldn't go more than two hours without food.
Grade 8 rolled around fast. Still was that class clown. I did everything for everybody, anything just to have friends. I let people use me, talk behind my back, and I was even there for people when they weren't there for me. I turned into the popular girl, all because I could make fun of myself. It was working for me, but then there were those days where you wake up, take a shower and you can't even wrap a towel around your body.
I went shopping for a graduation dress expecting a size 16. I ended up having to buy a size 22 dress. A 14-year-old, 223lbs, in a size 22 dress. It was sad and scary, as I was worried for my life every day, wondering what would happen if I died of a heart attack. Wondering what would happen if I were to be diagnosed with diabetes.
16 years old and scared of death already. I felt so trapped in my body, as if I was slowly dying inside. I was just so happy on the outside; you would never of been able to tell. I always wished that someday I would wake up and just take off the suit I was wearing, wondering how people would react. It was such a fantasy.
In July 2013, we had lost our house and ended up moving to an apartment. Over that summer I lost myself mentally. My mind felt like such a dark hole at night. Eventually, high school had come. You walk in and are surrounded by people who judge you, and it feels as if they are looking at the thing you are most insecure about. Fast-forwarding to September 24th 2013, I decided enough was enough.
My dad had applied for the gastric bypass surgery, and was about to go on the 2-week liquid fast prior to his surgery. The night before I sat down and told my dad,
"This is it. I am doing this one last time and please don't let me quit. I don't want to be the only one in this family who's obese. I promise I will do this."
16 years old and scared of death already. I felt so trapped in my body, as if I was slowly dying inside.
Every day after dinner I would jog around this park. I still remember on my very first day I jogged around the park 5 times, and pushed myself farther than I had ever done before.So I bumped up my calories. I fell into the typical bro diet. I meal prepped weekly, I would have chicken, sweet potato, ground turkey, steak, brown rice, asparagus, oats, protein powders and make some protein muffins.
I was emotionally damaged at such a young age. I was your typical weird girl; quiet, shy, and most often awkward. Thankfully, I always had my dad. He is my biggest hero
The biggest challenge was the mental game. I believe that many people have the capability, but when people want to lose weight usually they just are not mentally ready.
I lost a lot of people in my life during my weight loss; people almost forgot about me or wanted nothing to do with the new me. It's like they were supportive when I was slowly dying, but wanted nothing to do with me when I finally was living. The first 3 months of my journey, everyone was cool, but it wasn't until after my name started building that just drifted.
Before I would of seen that as a give in point...but for some reason, I used it as fuel this time. I always said "just make it 3 months" and I finally did. And I wanted nothing more than to make it to my year mark.
My mentality to move forward was what got me to where I am. Never slipped up once! Never gave in to my weaknesses.
I lost a lot of people in my life during my weight loss; people almost forgot about me or wanted nothing to do with the new me.
Well, I'd like to say I live a happier and much simpler life. I can walk into a clothing store or order things online without worrying if they will fit me. I can smile in the mirror, and feel confident in my own skin. I am able to motivate and inspire people daily, and change lives, which if you ask me is one of the coolest feelings in the world.
I attend school, work a part time job, and train 5 days a week. Bulking to gain some quality mass and just enjoying life. Growing up, but growing up living a happier life. Feeling confident.
My new goals are to make some serious gainz. haha! But most importantly to keep inspiring people, and keep changing peoples lives. I want to give people the feeling of freedom and to show people that anything is possible, no matter the age, or whatever obstacle may be in their way. You can literally do anything if you see it happening.
A dream of mine is to keep building my name, and eventually open a studio to work with those who feel like there is nothing left anymore. I hope to keep building my physique and one day step on the Olympia stage!